This is an almost unbearably tense week. I'd love to make it through unscathed, but it's starting to seem more unlikely the more I think about it. It
really is the smart time for people to try and take me out, since if I get out of trouble this week, next week will be the one where I go all out to win HoH
once more. It's not like I'd have a choice, considering it's likely my ass in danger once again. The X factor in all of this is Jay, since he has
yet to make his allegiances clear. He's so utterly content drifting in the middle and appeasing everyone that he's set himself up in the ideal position
for the F4. Right now he could either choose to go with Dom, Ed and I or Martin, Jeremiah and Lena. I'd naturally want to go against the 'power
couple', but it's uncertain whether Jay believes that to be myself and Dom or Jeremiah and Martin. The other 2 have quite an amount of power with the
ghosts at their disposal, potentially leaving Jay stranded high and dry in the future. If he sticks with us, it wouldn't be a concern since the ghosts
would be out to get Dom and I. It's always smart to keep targets that are bigger than you around yourself (hard luck for me, seeing as how I likely have
the biggest one of all in this game, though Jeremiah runs a close 2nd) so in doing this, Jay would more than certainly ensure his safety, giving him a run at
F2 as opposed to being the obvious eviction at F4.
Wendy's really turned south for me, and the fact that she's already started her campaigning to Ed to put me up on the non-existent chance that I'd nominate Jeremiah just keeps bugging me the more I think about it. Why the hell am I going to keep the most obvious evictee this week safe? What benefit does that serve me? At least against Ed, I think I have a shot. Jeremiah would be a total shit to evict me after all I've done for him in the past, Jay knows I'm far more on his side than Ed is, and Dom is a lock to keep me. It could be close, but I like to believe I'd stay against Ed. It seemed certain yesterday, but thoughts continued to place my mind in doubt. Kitty's clearly after me, Martin can probably just follow her like he always has, and if Jere or Jay are really with them, I'm out 4-1 or 3-2. That'll burn, leaving before Ed, but he's more of a minor irritation than an outright threat. Kitty said this is my game to lose, and it truly is. I'd have everything going for me should I manage to make it to the finals, but that's exactly why I shouldn't make it there. Unless there's some grand greater purpose for me in other people's plans, they have nothing to lose by sending me out now. Everything depends on if Ed thinks I'm his best chance of survival (which I am, unless Jay decides he's going to turn on Jere and evict him over Ed). Damn it, why can't things be as easy as the Ed/Wendy eviction that everyone talked about all weekend? I could just be over-analyzing and it IS that easy, but you always have to consider the other possibilities that people have and make your move based on what's probably best for them. I think if it's made clear to Jay he stands a better chance in the finals up against us, or if I have to make some crazy promise, like I'll evict Dom next week with the auto if I win it, then I'll do it. I mainly want to last as long as I can in the game so that I have to spend less time with Fantine in the jury lodge.
Winning...well, it'd be nice, even if it's not likely. Already been there, done that, so I don't mind giving someone else the chance at glory. I'm already certain I won't be able to be around for most of the questioning because I'm leaving for Australia on the 4th of May, so I'd have to spend my first 2 days there attempting to answer jury questions, so I'd rather go out 4th or 3rd and just not have to deal with the hassle. I want a respectable placing (definitely surviving this double would make me feel more comfortable about wherever I end up going out), but in the end I consider this a successful season for me because it's the first time I'll have a jury seat in the BB series and there's no way anybody could say I was a low-key player, which is how some deemed Jillian. Omar has been a dominator in this game, he's been connected to every single player since week 4, he's got arch-enemies and he's got best friends. I have had an immense amount of fun, which is why I play this series in the first place. Just next time I'll need to be a little more careful about my posting/login/logout/conversations, since that's apparently what fouled me up in this game. In the end, I'll only have to deal with most of these people on a very minimal basis following the game since I'm like, never on AIM, lol.
Wendy's really turned south for me, and the fact that she's already started her campaigning to Ed to put me up on the non-existent chance that I'd nominate Jeremiah just keeps bugging me the more I think about it. Why the hell am I going to keep the most obvious evictee this week safe? What benefit does that serve me? At least against Ed, I think I have a shot. Jeremiah would be a total shit to evict me after all I've done for him in the past, Jay knows I'm far more on his side than Ed is, and Dom is a lock to keep me. It could be close, but I like to believe I'd stay against Ed. It seemed certain yesterday, but thoughts continued to place my mind in doubt. Kitty's clearly after me, Martin can probably just follow her like he always has, and if Jere or Jay are really with them, I'm out 4-1 or 3-2. That'll burn, leaving before Ed, but he's more of a minor irritation than an outright threat. Kitty said this is my game to lose, and it truly is. I'd have everything going for me should I manage to make it to the finals, but that's exactly why I shouldn't make it there. Unless there's some grand greater purpose for me in other people's plans, they have nothing to lose by sending me out now. Everything depends on if Ed thinks I'm his best chance of survival (which I am, unless Jay decides he's going to turn on Jere and evict him over Ed). Damn it, why can't things be as easy as the Ed/Wendy eviction that everyone talked about all weekend? I could just be over-analyzing and it IS that easy, but you always have to consider the other possibilities that people have and make your move based on what's probably best for them. I think if it's made clear to Jay he stands a better chance in the finals up against us, or if I have to make some crazy promise, like I'll evict Dom next week with the auto if I win it, then I'll do it. I mainly want to last as long as I can in the game so that I have to spend less time with Fantine in the jury lodge.
Winning...well, it'd be nice, even if it's not likely. Already been there, done that, so I don't mind giving someone else the chance at glory. I'm already certain I won't be able to be around for most of the questioning because I'm leaving for Australia on the 4th of May, so I'd have to spend my first 2 days there attempting to answer jury questions, so I'd rather go out 4th or 3rd and just not have to deal with the hassle. I want a respectable placing (definitely surviving this double would make me feel more comfortable about wherever I end up going out), but in the end I consider this a successful season for me because it's the first time I'll have a jury seat in the BB series and there's no way anybody could say I was a low-key player, which is how some deemed Jillian. Omar has been a dominator in this game, he's been connected to every single player since week 4, he's got arch-enemies and he's got best friends. I have had an immense amount of fun, which is why I play this series in the first place. Just next time I'll need to be a little more careful about my posting/login/logout/conversations, since that's apparently what fouled me up in this game. In the end, I'll only have to deal with most of these people on a very minimal basis following the game since I'm like, never on AIM, lol.
